Not being in love Sucks

Thankfully I am.

So as some people might know I am in love. Love love love. These are words not normally uttered from my mouth but as of recent (4 months of recent) these words are true. As ive posted before i said i was in a rut basically, well that was just because i was in a bad mood and it was finals week. Which is just a shitty week for all in that position. But everything is great! I am currently sitting on my ass at home in boring Melbourne. My darling boyfriend came to visit me this past weekend. He is amazing. I felt very connected to him while he was here. I dont know why im feeling so lovey all of a sudden its not like we just exchanged the words, they have been out there for a while now but I feel like they have been rejuvenated. I think that is what happens when you go a while without seeing your other. I think its a good thing to be away from them for a while just so you know how much you love and miss them. Of course i would much rather not have to miss him, but its good for you every now and then. I just feel so crazy when i think about him, ive turned into one of those girls that i used to hate. I am always wanting to do something sweet for him and always wanted to be close to him. And i thought moving so fast would freak me out but it hasnt at all...Its funny because before college i used to be somewhat optimistic and then being in college i got a little (a lot) pessimistic. One might even say bitter...dont get me wrong i really enjoyed and abused my being single but there is always that wanting of something more....Well now that i have much more i think i am going back to a more optimistic place. Of course through all my changes I have always been a realist. That is one thing that is constant. But like a girl...i cant ever let go of that hope. The hope that reality isnt going to get me...that maybe the fairytale will.